Melodramatic

Being alone isn't as bad as one might think. However the thoughts you had buried and locked away in the deepest, darkest corner of your mind, that you willed yourself not to remember in the light of day, seek revenge when you are alone. I strongly believe that this is why normal people surround themselves with the company of others, to keep those thoughts at bay. But there are a few, or perhaps I'm the only one, who welcomes these thoughts with open arms. Dousing myself in the pain and sorrow they bring because I know this is the most I'll ever feel.